I had an interesting summer. Mainly highs but a couple lows that shook me a little more than I'd have thought. These issues arised because of the people I often am drawn to, they're my friends and I love them but trouble seems to follow them around through often no fault of their own. Spending nights with police and an overnight visit to A&E left me feeling on edge. I hibernated for quite a while and needed time away from talking to almost everyone. I'm lucky to have a strong and honest relationship with my mum so it was helpful to take each day at a time and spend evenings drinking with her in the back garden chaining menthol cigarettes.
I always bounce back though despite my own mental health issues because I luckily have a positive outlook on life and am scared of wasting my days stuck in a mental rut. I went to 5 festivals, volunteering at two meeting new people and sharing experiences I thrive on. One festival I went to by myself, volunteering shortly after the 'horrific night' and loved it. I only stayed for the days I had my shifts thinking it would be a chore as it was a kid's festival (working it meant I got a free bestival ticket) but it was actually just what I needed, a little break. Being surrounded by happy families made me value my own and being able to enjoy time by myslef not having to worry about people made me realise that being an empath can often be a hinderance. I spent an entire festival before this babysitting people who got worryingly too fucked, loosing bank cards, their way around and getting disturbingly fucked up meant I couldn't enjoy myself as I'd spend my time being sickeningly concerned about them with no regard for my own fun or safety.
This summer has taught me it's okay to be selfish. It's okay to look after myself above others and their fate is decided by them, I can't change or save them every time and that's okay.
I furthermore did some work for my neighbour, this introduced me into the world of more corporate design. It's not my style at all but it was interesting to learn more about brand identity, I designed a logo and website for a Med Tech company and developed my skills along the way. They said they were very happy with my speedy responses despite being busy working, going out and living in a field most weekends and I felt actually proud of myself which is a rare thing. I didn't mind compromising my initial designs which I preferred, as I learnt they weren't right in the context and it was more satisfying giving someone something they loved.
https://medtechaccess.co.uk/
Initial designs:
Final designs:
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